so, begin somewhat-jackie-inspired rumination:
the more I've gotten into photography the more I've noticed people's responses to it. what they say when they see the photos, or how they comment on my page (which, by the way, I luuuurrrrve!), or what they tell me later to my face. of course I'm sensitive to it, because I'm a girl, but I'm also intrigued. and part of that has to do with my fascination with words. but anyway.
It's funny to me how complete strangers (on myspace, for instance) will contact me and assume that they know me just because of the "art" that I've created. They think that these rectangles depicting colors and things and life just tell you everything you could possibly know about me. And on one hand, I find that flattering because I really like my photos, but on the other I'm frustrated too, because there's so much more to me than just what I can do with a camera.
I think--nay, I know--that I really don't like being miserunderstood.
But the most intriguing comments of all have to do with saying, "I really like the way you see things," or "you have good/interesting perspective." And it's funny, 'cause it's a hugely nice compliment, but at the same time I've never seen these things any other way. It's like when people ask me what it's like being a twin--how could I possibly know what it would be like any other way? I've always been one, (well, at least since that zygote split) and that's that. And for me it's the same way with photos--ever since I started to really take it in that's how I've seen things, so it's nothing new to me. It's just that now I can capture it.
end rumination. but maybe begin a different kind...

and now I feel like I've taken a sieve and put all of my thoughts and beliefs in it and shaken out all those little superfluous religious space fillers. the close-mindedness, the conservatism, the judging. Those pebbles are gone, and there's a few big rocks left (religious pun intended!)--God, and Jesus and the Holy Spirit. And Love. And Faith. And Hope.
1 comments:
wow I understand your thoughts completely, like Christ was all just a big religion and you thought anyone who believed differently was going to hell? But then you realized how that pushes people away from you and God... so you drop the charade. And see how much more powerfully God can use you to reach people if you take all the "religious" aspects out of it and just make it a lifestyle right? I mean those same people I looked at when I didn't "get" Christ and that.... didn't understand.. I'd look at those people wearing an "I am a Christian" shirt and just they looked so fake... then I became one of them and I was fake... But then I "woke" up I got rid of that "fake" attitude. And now God's more real to me when I just have the basics. And I can relate to people more when I'm not judging them for what they're into. It don't condone it but I don't hate them for it anymore. ya know?
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