i find it kind of amusing/ironic...

that I am totally okay with not having a really clear vision/path/whatever for my life (as a matter of fact it's a list of wants and do-not-wants, all nebulous and imprecise) but it's really important for me to know everything that's on my schedule already. like even until july.

i guess this way it's already set(ish) and I don't have to think about it? yeah, maybe.