i end up writing a lot of blogs about

people.

people I know.

people whose behavior kiiiiinda blows.

and deleting them or saving them as drafts because though I'd really like to vent I don't want the drama. rarely is it someone who actually reads my blog--but a lot of times its someone who knows where it is or could find it if they wanted. and sometimes they already read it. and anyway. there's something to that anonymity that Jackie was mentioning, I think.

worst of all are the hypocrites. the ones who complain about things that are entirely of their own causing. you made your bed--nay, you chose your bed. please don't expect sympathy from me.

(eg--if I were to complain about how far away durham is from glenwood avenue. hello, I chose durham. I opted to buy this home. I knew what I was getting into. I have definitely said "well, I'd come, but by the time I got there, blah, blah, blah, so it wouldn't make sense--but I don't bitch about it and I don't ask for sympathy for it, you know?)

I mean, it's one thing when all of your life situations kind of get crazy all at once. I'm not heartless, I get that sometimes even when we pick our path we don't realize the full ramifications of that decision. but yeesh.

additionally, and in the same vein, I have decided to very much lower my tolerance for bullsh!t. there are a few people who I very much feel are either using me, manipulating me or taking advantage of me. and I've had enough of that, thanks.

it is terribly frustrating to be one who tries to be kind and understanding and mostly a benefit-of-the-doubt-giver and have it be totally abused. so no mas. no mas.

anyhoo.

on a happier note? today I shall try to post about my giveaway. I've been meaning to do that for a while now.