dude, I am so buying a lottery ticket.

and then matt is going to buy one too with pretty much the exact opposite numbers and he'll win the jackpot and we'll go on a fancy vacation and he'll buy all his family's homes from them and let them live rent free but he won't pay my rent or buy me a car but he'll always pay for dinner.

um, yeah.

ps, would the exact opposite numbers be, what, reciprocals? do you switch a 1 with a 9, a 2 with an 8, etc? since, y'know, there are no negative numbers available for the choosing....

anyhoo.

so, um. list for tulsa. I go in the AM and the funeral is at 2pm on Thursday in the funeral home on Peoria. Which I went to church by like every sunday for pretty much ever.

upper respiratory infection? check.
codeine-laced cough syrup? check.
anti-bacterials pills that are pink? check.
mucinex? check.
nasal saline spray? check.
moisturizing afrin? check.
maxifed (a relative of sudafed that works for those of us who've had sinus surgery)? check.
aquaphor (man that stuff rocks my socks)? check. and, now in travel-size, too!
travel kleenex? check.

and that's only the sinus/respiratory-related stuff. egads.

so, yeah, here goes the whining: so, I paid a lot of money to go to oklahoma tomorrow. it's worth every penny, but I'm going to be getting friendly with the ramen noodles, methinks. one of my project directors was a HUGE ASS yesterday regarding the whole death-of-close-relative-funeral-thing (but he was nicer today), I had to see *two* doctors today, not just one, because my work physical place won't do prescriptions, my new antibiotic thingie can't be taken within two hours of zantac so I have to plan my eating and medicine accordingly, and also the amount of coughing I'm doing is, well, alarming. I'm also exhausted. * but my across-the-way-neighbor woke me up from my much needed nap this afternoon because he needed ketchup. glad to help him, but still. and and and--this one really gets my goat--so, my cousin lives on the other side of okc from my brother, right? admittedly it's like forty minutes away from adam's dorm--but all in all only adds an hour to his trip total (it's only mostly out of his way). but my cousin will only drive adam to tulsa if adam, who has neither a license nor a car, can get himself to andy's home. in other common situations, fine, fine. but dude, this is for a funeral. it's quite literally a once-in-a-lifetime event. and it's important. and so, instead, I with my rental car shall leave for tulsa at 915 raleigh time, arrive in t-town at noon central and after a lunch and hugs commence the two hour drive to and from norman.

I am happy to get my brother. I am pleased that I can take this burden from my mother. I am annoyed that my cousin won't go get adam, and that instead I am going to travel at a minimum nine hours tomorrow. With an upper respiratory infection.

end complaining. as I'm sure you realize, at times blogs are for venting. and, I do realize that I could be waaaaay worse off--allergic to the air, unable to speak/walk/type, etc--and I'm sure my cousin has his reasons. but, as they say on gray's--seriously.

mmmkay, some quick happier stuff before my medicine knocks me out.

I'll get to the * in just a sec--no happy in the midst of a rant, wouldn't want to muddy the tone. Today Matt and I used yet another handy dandy coupon and tried Brixx pizza for the first time. Quite yummy and a good beer selection for sure (thanks for the recommendation, kim!). We are also rather excited about this program here-and we found out that Matt and I are able to have our Brixx Bash at the same time. We figure we can each invite 5 or 6 people and each can get a pizza with the seventy five smackers. :) We'll be getting that koozie and tshirt in no time at all. And we know we'd better hurry before they discontinue it!

and about that asterisk. I feel like I'm bursting with get-things-accomplished-ness and then I feel like I need to sleep for a week. Like, that I'm oscillating in a sinusoidal fashion (which is sooooooo the best math/sinus pun I've ever made in my life but moving on) and it's awful. But Matt has been so helpful and kind and I'm just really thankful for him. you know how sometimes you see the expression in someone's eyes and their concern makes you feel better because you realize that you have someone else looking out for you just as much as you're looking out for you? yeah. that.

and speaking of thankful...

I have gotten so many comments. And emails. And phone calls. And so many offers of help from so many people. people as close as a mile away and as far as colorado and california and hawaii, and from people I've known since elementary school to people who I just met this summer. and I feel so loved and comforted and I really appreciate it. Thank you for offers of rides and for looking things up for me and for offers of food and distraction.

anonymous from the last post was right--I am a very loved and lucky girl. and I am so greatful.